4 1/2!!!!

Time slow down!!! E is officially 4.5. He is now at the age where 1/2 is VERY important and he has been asking for weeks if he is 4 1/2 yet!! Well today is finally that day!!! 🙂


Disney 2018

When I was 4, about a million and one years ago, my parents drove us down to Orlando to go to Disney World. This was pre-Epcot and WDW was fairly new. I have vague memories of the trip but fond ones. I have always said since that I would not return to WDW until I had a 4 year old myself. Well our dreams came true last month. We headed to Orlando and E had the time of his life!! I finally got to see Epcot and we also got Animal Kingdom. E loves the fast rides and we literally rode every ride that he was tall enough to ride on. His favorites were Fast Track, Splash Mountain, Space Mountain and Dinosaur. He found the Avatar ride to be fascinating but a little intense. Overall it was an amazing experience. Nama and grandpa joined us down there.

Rawr I’m 4!

Sorry, with school ending and birthday craziness I never posted about the big 4 on May 20. Four for E was just as hard as 40 was for me!!! He is my big boy now. <sniff, sniff>. We are having more meaningful conversations and he is generally a sweet, kind, sometimes moody and lovable boy! I am a very lucky mama! We had a dinosaur birthday party and then E and I took our annual birthday zoo trip on his actually birthday. Here are some pics.

I don’t have a dad

Yesterday at Home Depot E had to use the bathroom. He is becoming more aware of signage and asked if he could use the boys room vs. the girls room because DUH he is a boy after all. I said yes (argh hardest part of being a boy mom sometimes) and stood there waiting for him to emerge. I heard someone helping him wash his hands and get the paper towels for him. E then exclaims loudly (and a totally random statement imo) “I have a mom but NOT a dad!” Ugh! The man just smiled at me when he helped E open the bathroom door.

Ps it’s Mother’s Day today and E is still asleep!!!!!! It’s 7:43am. Hurray!!! Best gift ever!


I am so super excited bc for xmas I donated my last vial to another SMC that I met on IG. She is currently in her TWW and I feel like it’s my own TWW in a way. For one, it she gets a BFP, E will get another half sibling. It is also the vial I thought I would use to give E a sibling but after years of deliberation decided against it. So many pros and cons, but on a teacher’s salary it is best that we remain a 2 person family. We will have a full life and E will get to join activities and go on nice vacations. It was a mix of relief and sadness giving it away bc now I know I am done having children. And I am relieved that I don’t have to think about it anymore. I pray that this mama gets her BFP! This TWW has been equally as excruciating as my own TWWs. One week down, one to go!

Food battles

Years later we are still on the food battle train. I keep trying to figure out ways to get vegetables into my child’s body. I buy vitamins that have vegetables in them and he will eat kale chips (which I make at home). He eats seaweed snacks and he used to eat carrots but now claims he doesn’t like them anymore. I bought a reusable silicon squeeze pouch that I tried sneaking blended carrots and applesauce into. He was too clever for that trick. But today I made a smoothie which I called a “milkshake” (the wording is equally as important as the color of the product!) and added a ton of blueberries and honey to cover the taste (and color) of the spinach! And it worked! It was milk based with spinach, a frozen banana, frozen blue berries, and honey. In my first attempt I added flax seed meal, but the boy said he didn’t like the “stuff” in the milkshake and I assumed he meant the flax meal which makes it a little “mealy” so I remade it. I will get braver as I go forward but I didn’t want to push my luck on the first try. Maybe I’ll try avocado tomorrow. Avocado makes the “milkshakes” so smooth and yummy. The key for E is to make sure it does NOT look green hence the many blueberries. Wish me luck. It is a constant and ever changing battle.

This is today’s lunch as he has also stopped eating any form of sandwich. It is a mish mash of random stuff that makes up a somewhat balanced meal.

No more me-mes

I know this might totally shock some people but I nursed until my boy was done. It was very gentle. I just could not do it any other way. It was such a great connection for us after being separated all day by work and daycare. After two, we were just down to bedtime nursing. Once he was three, I started feeling like I was done. At one point it started feeling like nails on a chalkboard. By 3.5 he was just doing it out of habit. He didn’t need it at all. He would ask for it about twice a week. It would only last a minute or less. We started rubbing backs to sleep. That became enough. One day I just said to him, “You don’t need this anymore, you’re a big boy now.” He replied, “ok” and just rolled over to sleep. It was too easy! Then a week or so later he said, “Mama, I don’t need me-mes anymore! I’m a big boy!” I never realized that the last time would be our last time so that makes me a bit sad and a bit thankful. It just was what it was and we are done 3.75 years later! He even fell asleep sans back rub last night. 3 years ago I could have never imagined this day, but here we are!! Things are sweet and lovely, and my silly boy, though full of big emotions, is just everything I dreamed he would be! ❤️. Today we are off to see Daniel Tiger Live. (I think I prefer that to last months Monster Jam!) Being almost 4 is pretty amazing!